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Journey of a mother

Finally! i am a mother of a cute little girl named Evazara Medina. Nothing more beautiful to have her in my life. Thanks Ya Allah for giving me this such lovely moment.

So, pengalaman time labor. Sakitnya memang tak tau nak cakap la.. I was exactly in 39 weeks 6 days when  I went to the hospital. Baby xmau keluar2..No sign of laboring..At this stage i was only 1 cm dilated. So, the doctors there decided to induce my labor on the next day (2nd July 2013).Malam tu konon nak tidur awal la nak rest cukup2 kot2 esok labor kan..Tp memang x boleh tidur langsung la sebab ada baby kakak sebelah katil yang menangis all night long..-.-"

The induction started at 6am on the next day which was on 2nd July 2013..Then I was getting contractions on and off at around 7am..Alhamdulillah, i could still handle them..Much more felt like having period pain..The contractions were getting worse around 10am..Thankfully i have my husband to be by my side..Thank u by..:') Now was only 4 cm dilated..The pain finally got too much to handle..baring x kena duduk pun x kena..Even dah try duduk semua position pun the pain still x relieve..sakit pinggang yang teramat..so, what i did was i kept asking my husband and my mom to rub my back so that berharap the pain could be reduced..tapi tak kurang pun sakit tu sebenarnya..tapi kita jadi lagi semangat la bila ada orang sentiasa be by our side time  genting cmtu kan..

Around 3pm guard yang jaga ward tu datang and suruh pelawat keluar..Oh Myyyyy..mmg rasa nak nangis je..dah la tengah sakit, kena tinggal sorang2 pulak tu..duduk la sorang dalam bilik tu sambil zikir banyak2..air mata dah mengalir dah time ni.. Around 4pm sakit dia dah mmg unbearable dah..every 5minutes contraction mmg akan datang.. So, tepat 4.30pm barulah masuk labor room..before masuk labor room boleh pulak muntah..so, mmg masuk labor room dlm keadaan x cukup tidur n x bertenaga perut kosong..and at this time still 4cm dilated..tp sakit macam nak beranak dah..mujur midwife tu baik pegang tangan sama2 zikir..then, the doctor came n pecahkan air ketuban,emptykan bladder semua..Alhamdulillah, terus 6cm dilated..then, i saw the doctor and the midwife macam kecoh2..Jantung baby makin drop!

Alhamdulillah, tiba2 rasa nak push sgt2 time tu..rasa mcm baby dah hujung2 nak kaluar dah..So, i told the doctor rasa x tahan macam kena push jgk even baru 6cm dilated..and the doctor checked, kepala baby dah dapat rasa dh..After several minutes of pushing, my daughter, Evazara Medina Binti Hasnur Hakim was born at 5.45pm on 2nd July 2013!Alhamdulillah..

Felt like crying when the fist time holding my baby..keluar2 je terus berak atas mama..adoihaii..:) sejukk je tgk muka dia..ni la yang selalu teman study,pergi kelas,jwb exam semua..InsyaAllah, i will try my best to take care of this lovely child..

So, ni video Evazara Medina masa 3 months old..how time flies..sekarang Eva dah umur 4 bulan 3minggu dah..kejap je rasa..Now baru la tahu macam mana perit and sakitnya ibu kita lahirkan kita kat dunia ni..:')

it's 23 weeks already!

pejam celik pejam celik kejap je..today is day this little one inside my womb  reaching 23weeks old..every movement of this little one memang boleh rasa..tengok perut dah gerak2 sendiri..how heaven it is..as i know budak kecik dalam perut ni membesar dengan baik..good job anak mama.. ;p

ingat lagi time tengah morning sickness teruk dulu..bila orang tanya "aliaa, cmna hari ni?" i just told them "everything is ok" sambil senyum je padahal rasa nak nangis sebab penat everything kena buat sendiri such as basuh baju, drive sendiri pg kelas, and even kadang2 nak ambik air atas meja pun x larat sebab pening sangat2..hostel pulak tingkat 3.. bila time exam tengok orang lain tengah study memang jadi sangat stress..sebab kepala tengah pening, loya nak muntah semua..macam mana nak studyyy?? bila my mum called memang soalan yang sama akan ditanya.."macam mana hari ni?" the same answer yang aliaa akan jawab "ok je..x da apa2 pun, biasa la awal2 pening sikit2 tu, tapi ok je"..tapi dalam hati ni hanya Allah je la tahu bila mata dah bergenang dengan kilauan2 kaca air mata..heheh

minggu exam memang paksa diri..what i did was tulis bnyak2 kata2 semangat untuk diri sendiri and lekatkan kat dinding..so, everyday aliaa akan tgk apa yang aliaa tulis tu..alhamdulillah even everyday time exam tu tido tunggang langgang, pg dewan exam bwk plastik n asam sebab nak muntah, hari2 rutin makan roti or biskut je sebab tu je perut boleh terima masa tu, Allah tu Maha Besar, he gave me strength to overcome semua tu sepanjang 2weeks++ time exam week tu..Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah bila dapat result exam mmg unexpected..terima kasih Ya Allah..

So, now?hehehe..perut makin memboyot, hati makin senang,makan makin banyak..(ambek kau!!;p)..yang penting!ada org yang kita sayang sentiasa di sisi..(ceewah!!heh..) beliau ialah "MY ONLY ONE MR RIGHT IAITU MR HASNUR HAKIM ADAM"..mujur la husband aliaa ni cuti semester time sekarang..januari sampai mei okeyy..boleh la dia bermastautin kejap kt kuantan ni jaga isteri tersayang sorang ni kan..so, everyday boleh la jumpa..kalau tak, tiap2 hari boleh call, msg je la nak ngadu apa2..

apa yang best bila time pregnant ni? layanan mmg best..bermodalkan kata2.."by x kesian kat hunny ke? hunny tgh pregnant  niii.."sambil buat2 muka kesian..xpun cakap " baby yang nakkkk"..these two magical words mmg berkesan untuk buat hubby2 anda di luar sana lebih prihatin terhadap anda..;p  tapi jangan la nak mintak melampau2 pulak okey..alhamdulillah la, sepanjang pregnant ni x penah lagi aliaa ngidam pelik2..setakat mangga muda, buah2 masam tu common la..(Oh, anyway, hunny tu panggilan yang my husband panggil aliaa n by tu panggilan aliaa panggil dia la..by tu from word hubby actually)

ok la..that's all for now...will update soon the progress of my baby..:)